Blissful Shelley

T asked me last night if I would mind that he has lunch with his ex girlfriend this week.  She asked him the other day, and he wanted to make sure I am ok with it before he agrees.  I have mixed feelings… of course I don’t want him to see her.  She hurt him badly and played all sorts of mind games.  I told him that I trust him, I trust his judgement, and that if he feels ok about it, I’m ok with it.  I said that I don’t want it to be a regular thing, but one time is ok.  We are both curious why she wants to see him…. hopefully it’s just to catch up a little.  He said she might try to suck me into her drama, but I assured him I won’t let that happen.  I’m too old for childish games.  Let’s hope I made the right choice.

I ran my car out of gas on Friday.  My gas light was on, but I ignored it and just kept on driving.  I went to a bar to have a drink with my best friend on Friday.  Later, when I tried to leave, the car wouldn’t start… I knew right away that it was out of gas.  T had to take me to put gas in the gas can and back to my car on Saturday.  Luckily it started once we put a gallon of gas into it.

We went and saw “Transformers” last night at the dollar theater.  I really liked that movie! 

My jaw is kissing me, i have to learn how to relax the muscles more… somehow.

Recently I have been completing online surveys for points, and I just redeemed my first reward. I will be getting a one year subscription to Redbook. I know, some people wont find that exciting, but I do… the best part is that it is free!!

I started this detox kit on Sunday. It is extrememly gentle and so far I haven’t really noticed much of a change in how I feel. It consists of three different bottles of natural ingredients. You put 30 drops of each into a bottle of water and drink it every day. One of the three concoctions seems to upset my stomach a little bit, but not enough that I can’t keep drinking it. I do have a headache today, but I think that is more from caffiene withdrawal. I usually take some excedrine migraine for my headaches, but I am trying to get off the caffiene, which excedrine also has in it….soooo, I’m trying to ignore the headache and go on with my day.

I’ve been bidding on a digital voice recorder on ebay so that I can start doing mystery shopping. My bf, T, has been doing it for a few years and has taken me along for a few of them. Its really easy money, so I figured I’d give it a shot. He has gotten all kinds of free food and free stuff, not to mention extra money, from doing that and surveys. I know, most of those seem like the aren’t legit, but he knows which ones are and has hooked me up!

It really doesn’t, when one is unemployed and worried about finances.  The job hunt is going slow.  I have been on a few interviews, but I’m waiting for the background check to go through.  I am going for an interview Friday, for a massage therapy job, that I sorta hope works out for me…. but id I don’t snap out of this depression and show some enthusiasm, it wont matter if i show up.

I just haven’t felt like doing much of anything other than lounging around the house in my pajamas.  When T comes over, he holds me and we relax together…. I’d be a happy girl if i never had to do anything but chill out with him.  i think i am falling in love with him, but i am not going to tell him just yet.  For once in my life, i’m letting the relationship develop slowly, and it feels wonderful.

I had a really good weekend, spent the majority of it with my new man.  We’ve been dating for a month, and things are going really well. 

Sunday I had another 6 hour massage class to attend, just to finish getting the CEU’s that I needed to renew my massage registration.  While there, i bought a new necklace… silver, with a very pretty locket.  Inside is a quartz crystal that has a chlorite occlusion.  They say its good for healing, which I could certainly use.  I had my eye on a very gentle detox kit two weeks ago when I was there, and yesterday, the class instructor gave me the kit!  It sells in his shop for $36.99 and he just gave it to me!  He knows I recently quit smoking, and it will help with the process…. all he asked is that I contact him in about a week and let him know how its going.

Someone i love dearly set this page up for me and i’m soooooo excited about it! i’ve never been good at writing down my thoughts, but i’ll do the best i can. Life was going really well for me for several months, then all of a sudden it just took a turn for the worst. I feel like someone from above just flipped the switch of life one day last month and now i’m crawling around near rock bottom just waiting for the other shoe to drop.