Blissful Shelley

I am so tired of being reminded that I am the “new guy” at work, and being expected to do all the dirty work around here.

Not only am I cold, I am also sad for no particular reason. Perhaps it is because I’m sitting at a desk, in a small cubicle, watching television shows and trying to think of new and exciting things I can google just to pass the time while at work. Ha! I don’t even feel right calling it work. I am going nuts sitting here doing nothing all day, and getting paid over $15 an hour to do it. I need to be productive, I need to be busy….. and I don’t know what the hell I want to do for a career.

I was a helicopter mechanic for thirteen years. I got burned out on that, to the point where I was physically ill every day going to work. Sooo, I left that career behind and went to massage therapy school. I worked nearly full time for about two years doing that, until it got to be too hard on my hands. Then I sorta ‘fell’ into a position at a help desk working a technical support position, with no prior experience, no formal training… just an ex-husband who pulled some strings and helped me get a job. Now, here I sit… trying to figure out how I can go back to school full time in a program that I think I’d like… and still help pay the bills.

Most people would love to have my “job”, getting paid to do nothing. I’m bored to tears, and it depresses me.

So far, it works pretty well.  We’ll see when I’m done.  I skipped my workout Monday, but did it Tuesday instead.  Monday I had my doctor appointment.  I really liked her, she took lots of time to address all my questions and concerns.  She changed my blood pressure medication to one that does not include a diuretic, which I am grateful for.  She also ordered some lab work, to include a test to check my thyroid levels, since I’ve been taking medication for depression for about 15 years…and there is no history of depression in my family.  I’m going to the lab on Saturday with DH, as he has to go get his cholesterol levels checked too.

Today I started my cycle, and am feeling nauseous, so I probably won’t workout.  I’m heading downstairs to rest, crochet, and try to catch up on some old episodes of “Third Watch”.